Well, another month just passed and me without updating. HAHA. Ah well, nothing much has happened so far, except me going to work everyday, getting exhausted, having the weather rain on me everytime I wanted, no, NEEDED, to mow the lawn, and now my backyard is a jungle with grass as tall as my waist..... oh yeahhhhhhh you gotta love summer.
I finally found out my marks today. Yeah, stupid McMaster... bunch of lazy 4sses........ and the news is 50/50. Good news is, I'm out of probation!! YES! I'M OFFICIALLY A CS MAJOR! MUHAHAHAHA!!! Now for the bad news.... I failed my automata course. Great... now I have to retake it and go through that horror AGAIN... sigh.... someone shoot me. It's not fair dammit! Now I can't take my final CS core course without special permission. But there's no guarantee I can do that, which means at MOST, I have to be in Mac for another 2 terms, except they won't be in the same year.... =( FSCK!!!! I don't want to graduate in 2004!! I have no money left!!! I can't afford to go to school and keep my car.. FACK!!! Time to save BIG TIME... I hate this........ but at least I'm a CS major now, so I just have to maintain my average to succeed. I'll just throw in a few bird courses to guarantee that. Grumble................
Thursday, May 30, 2002
Saturday, May 04, 2002
May 4, 2002
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (in a relaxing tone). It's overrrr. ^_^ Well, I didn't do very well on the exam, but then, neither did the class. LOL. One thing about that automata prof is that his exams are LONG. VERY LONG. Even with 3 hours, you CANNOT finish all of it even if you tried. 18 questions...... 12 constructions and 6 proofs. I spent 2.5 hours on the 12 constructions, most of which I didn't even get! I only did one proof in the end.... joy....... here's to that great bell curve!
Anyway, with exams over, it's back to work I go. I started work on Tuesday. Things are great there I guess. There's a lot more to do than before, but only because unlike the first time, I'm taking more initiative to get more done. Which is a good thing, sometimes it gets pretty void during the day only because we're in the slow parts of testing and not near a software release. When it's release time, oh boy, it gets crazy.
I've finally started driving my car! YAY! It's really great since I only had 2 practice runs with my dad but by Monday night I was actually able to drive it well enough to go to work with it the next morning! WOOHOO! Sure, I've been stalling quite a few times this week, but it's pretty normal for a beginner. But most people think I drive great! So yeah! Happy!
Anyway, with exams over, it's back to work I go. I started work on Tuesday. Things are great there I guess. There's a lot more to do than before, but only because unlike the first time, I'm taking more initiative to get more done. Which is a good thing, sometimes it gets pretty void during the day only because we're in the slow parts of testing and not near a software release. When it's release time, oh boy, it gets crazy.
I've finally started driving my car! YAY! It's really great since I only had 2 practice runs with my dad but by Monday night I was actually able to drive it well enough to go to work with it the next morning! WOOHOO! Sure, I've been stalling quite a few times this week, but it's pretty normal for a beginner. But most people think I drive great! So yeah! Happy!
Sunday, April 28, 2002
April 28, 2002
D-Day minus one......... Tomorrow will be my worst exam ever, only on the count that I really don't want to write it. =P I hate the material with a passion.. and I can't study it anymore... argh... but I'm still soo clueless on most of it... it's not funny. Sigh....
On a high note, had my first driving lesson with my dad this morning....... and I FEEL GOOOOOOOD =D. Driving a manual is not that hard.... just have to master 1st gear and pressing the clutch properly. The upper gears are no effort..... I went up to 4th gear today and I swear I think I can handle the highway. Hee hee! Can't wait! My dad won't let me drive it on my own just yet... but after a few more practices and I'll be fine. I just need practice and to get used to it. Ah well, that's all for now... gotta keep cramming for that STUPID exam... =(
On a high note, had my first driving lesson with my dad this morning....... and I FEEL GOOOOOOOD =D. Driving a manual is not that hard.... just have to master 1st gear and pressing the clutch properly. The upper gears are no effort..... I went up to 4th gear today and I swear I think I can handle the highway. Hee hee! Can't wait! My dad won't let me drive it on my own just yet... but after a few more practices and I'll be fine. I just need practice and to get used to it. Ah well, that's all for now... gotta keep cramming for that STUPID exam... =(
Thursday, April 18, 2002
April 18, 2002
ARRRRGGHH!!!! I really hate this term.. I really do.....
Just to put it simply, I failed my exam yesterday..... BADLY...... and I just don't understand why I didn't remember the things I studied.... argh... I can probably point that out to the fact that the day before, I had to present my year long group project... and I had to memorize things I had to say. Basically I ended up forgetting what I've studied before.... ARGH! FSCK!! HATE this...... well, I guess it's not 100% bad since my friends in that course was kind fscked up too... but not as badly as me I don't think......... I'll pass the course, but that's not what I was shooting for. I need a C avg among my two courses and the project to remain in the Honours Comp Sci program.... and from the looks of things, that's getting unlikely. My next exam is on the 29th, plenty of time to study.. that's good... but still.. a lot of material to cover.. and since that exam is OPEN BOOK... I'm not expecting to get a very high mark... this is very bad......... definitely going to be drinking after all this is over......
Well, I guess I can revert back to my 3 year Math Sci degree if things don't work out.... it would be nice for me to get a CS degree, but going into the IT field, might not be necessary... as long as my knowledge on IT is good, and I can supplement that w/ certifications... so might not end up being that bad... but still, I'm just very disappointed. Damn, that bell curve must be pretty huge for me to get away with anything, or my project presentation ended up being ok and getting a good mark from that... dunno.
Oh yeah, my presentation didn't end up that well either! We had to improvise the entire presentation because we initially made it a kind of oral presenation but they didn't want that. They just wanted us to demonstrate our software. WTF..... that wasn't the focus of our project... I'm just scared that they'll think we didn't do much when we did end up doing quite a bit. Just that timing issues popped up that we didn't anticipate... ok.. bad excuse that will get us killed.. but still.. argh... with all the courses we had to handle, and this project too... I don't know.. I'm just really feeling low from all these disappointments... I can't wait until this is over and I can start working and learning some GOOD shitz... and I'll be driving my new car soon. YAY! Finally gonna drive a manual! MUHAHAHA! UPDATE: Well, went to the dealership with my dad today. I'm going to be getting the car very soon. But just not according to my initial plans... I had hoped to grab a Vibe (since it's technically a Toyota Matrix =P) but couldn't afford it.... 6.9% APR man... frig.. i'd be paying for how much my dad pays for his van... can't afford that for sure.. so.. will be going for a Cavalier for sure. A LOT cheaper.. and it doesn't matter anyway.. I just need a car to beat on for the next few years. Problem is, I'm going to be racking up SIGNIFICANT amount of mileage (since I'm leasing).. and looks like I will go over for sure (since I have to work and THEN commute to school too for at least a term or two... ARGH)... man.. not good... oh well, story of my life.
Just to put it simply, I failed my exam yesterday..... BADLY...... and I just don't understand why I didn't remember the things I studied.... argh... I can probably point that out to the fact that the day before, I had to present my year long group project... and I had to memorize things I had to say. Basically I ended up forgetting what I've studied before.... ARGH! FSCK!! HATE this...... well, I guess it's not 100% bad since my friends in that course was kind fscked up too... but not as badly as me I don't think......... I'll pass the course, but that's not what I was shooting for. I need a C avg among my two courses and the project to remain in the Honours Comp Sci program.... and from the looks of things, that's getting unlikely. My next exam is on the 29th, plenty of time to study.. that's good... but still.. a lot of material to cover.. and since that exam is OPEN BOOK... I'm not expecting to get a very high mark... this is very bad......... definitely going to be drinking after all this is over......
Well, I guess I can revert back to my 3 year Math Sci degree if things don't work out.... it would be nice for me to get a CS degree, but going into the IT field, might not be necessary... as long as my knowledge on IT is good, and I can supplement that w/ certifications... so might not end up being that bad... but still, I'm just very disappointed. Damn, that bell curve must be pretty huge for me to get away with anything, or my project presentation ended up being ok and getting a good mark from that... dunno.
Oh yeah, my presentation didn't end up that well either! We had to improvise the entire presentation because we initially made it a kind of oral presenation but they didn't want that. They just wanted us to demonstrate our software. WTF..... that wasn't the focus of our project... I'm just scared that they'll think we didn't do much when we did end up doing quite a bit. Just that timing issues popped up that we didn't anticipate... ok.. bad excuse that will get us killed.. but still.. argh... with all the courses we had to handle, and this project too... I don't know.. I'm just really feeling low from all these disappointments... I can't wait until this is over and I can start working and learning some GOOD shitz... and I'll be driving my new car soon. YAY! Finally gonna drive a manual! MUHAHAHA! UPDATE: Well, went to the dealership with my dad today. I'm going to be getting the car very soon. But just not according to my initial plans... I had hoped to grab a Vibe (since it's technically a Toyota Matrix =P) but couldn't afford it.... 6.9% APR man... frig.. i'd be paying for how much my dad pays for his van... can't afford that for sure.. so.. will be going for a Cavalier for sure. A LOT cheaper.. and it doesn't matter anyway.. I just need a car to beat on for the next few years. Problem is, I'm going to be racking up SIGNIFICANT amount of mileage (since I'm leasing).. and looks like I will go over for sure (since I have to work and THEN commute to school too for at least a term or two... ARGH)... man.. not good... oh well, story of my life.
Thursday, April 11, 2002
April 11, 2002
Well, it's 2:20am.... why am I up again? Hahah... not depression, I'll tell you that. Of course, final exams still suck. But that ain't why I'm up either. I think I'm on that high again... heheh no I ain't a druggie either... nor do I have any alcohol around.... =P
Just to put it simply, I am talking to her again... yeah.. HER HER HER.... =P Gee, you people must think I am nuts. I mean, haven't I said anything yet? Why am I still dragging this on when I should have already taken the opportunity to just spit it out and let her know of my intentions? Truth is, my only (free) means of communication with her is ICQ.... get the hint? =P And doing it over ICQ just isn't exactly my ideal plan... cuz I've done it b4 and it never seems to work (or sound right)... =P I much rather do it in person... it just seems more effective that way. And given the obvious hint I just revealed, when exactly will THAT happen? =P Soon enough.... but not soon enough for me =P
With the new information I have revealed (which may dangerously compromise my plans if she sees this), you people must still wonder what is it about her that would make me set aside any plans on finding someone more... err... local? =P Well, what's that part in that Puddle Of Mudd song Blurry? It goes, "There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far"? Right? (And surprise surprise, I'm starting to get on the alternative bandwagon... what happened to good ol' Ian raver-boy wannabe? He's still here, Trance and Eurodance is still my fav music, but sometimes I need a little guitar action to satisfy my music needs =P) Anyway, back on track, she just seems to be everything I could have ever hoped for, both on short term and long term perspectives.. (yes, call me crazy as how could a person like myself could even CONSIDER long term planning at this stage of my life.. I'm not just crazy, I'm INSANE =P) She just seems to have some sort of hold on me... I thought I was crazy to even consider it given that I barely know her, but now that I've gotten to know her a lot more, things seem to fit into place.
From the talks we have had so far, it is as if this was 'THE ONE' =P Cheesy, yes, but I have searched far and wide with no luck... maybe I'm picky yes... but there was always something about the girls around here that kept me holding back... always something to nitpick..... in her case, the only nitpick would be that while I am head-over-heels for her, would she ever feel the same for me? It's always that question, and from my current past experience count, 95% of the time it is no =P At least it isn't 100%.... =P Well, I will find out once the time comes...... whenever it will be. Despite my obvious desire to have to wait until I can do it in person, 7 to 1 odds I will not be given that chance as I will probably blurt it out on the spur of the moment cuz the way I am talking with her would present that opportunity... it shouldn't be surprising as I think I've been holding back on this too long.. but this is really not because I am afraid... it's not that anymore...... I just want the right timing... something like after a nice date around the town... maybe on a moonlit sky, stars shining all around us, blah blah blah... geez... never knew I was such a hopeless romantic.. haha =P
Yeah, that's the plan... whether it works or not, I will have to see.... but right now, I really don't care about what her reaction is... I care more about finally letting this out of my system so that I can move on.... I don't want to feel that I am always holding back out of fear of rejection.. heck, with my track record, you'd think that I'm used to it by now.. haha pathetic =P Funny I would shoot myself in the foot like this.. but neh! That's me and my lack of confidence. haha. Anyway, well, there's my rant for the night.. now I better go to sleep since I am expecting a phone call next morning.. HINT HINT =P
Just to put it simply, I am talking to her again... yeah.. HER HER HER.... =P Gee, you people must think I am nuts. I mean, haven't I said anything yet? Why am I still dragging this on when I should have already taken the opportunity to just spit it out and let her know of my intentions? Truth is, my only (free) means of communication with her is ICQ.... get the hint? =P And doing it over ICQ just isn't exactly my ideal plan... cuz I've done it b4 and it never seems to work (or sound right)... =P I much rather do it in person... it just seems more effective that way. And given the obvious hint I just revealed, when exactly will THAT happen? =P Soon enough.... but not soon enough for me =P
With the new information I have revealed (which may dangerously compromise my plans if she sees this), you people must still wonder what is it about her that would make me set aside any plans on finding someone more... err... local? =P Well, what's that part in that Puddle Of Mudd song Blurry? It goes, "There's oceans in between us, but that's not very far"? Right? (And surprise surprise, I'm starting to get on the alternative bandwagon... what happened to good ol' Ian raver-boy wannabe? He's still here, Trance and Eurodance is still my fav music, but sometimes I need a little guitar action to satisfy my music needs =P) Anyway, back on track, she just seems to be everything I could have ever hoped for, both on short term and long term perspectives.. (yes, call me crazy as how could a person like myself could even CONSIDER long term planning at this stage of my life.. I'm not just crazy, I'm INSANE =P) She just seems to have some sort of hold on me... I thought I was crazy to even consider it given that I barely know her, but now that I've gotten to know her a lot more, things seem to fit into place.
From the talks we have had so far, it is as if this was 'THE ONE' =P Cheesy, yes, but I have searched far and wide with no luck... maybe I'm picky yes... but there was always something about the girls around here that kept me holding back... always something to nitpick..... in her case, the only nitpick would be that while I am head-over-heels for her, would she ever feel the same for me? It's always that question, and from my current past experience count, 95% of the time it is no =P At least it isn't 100%.... =P Well, I will find out once the time comes...... whenever it will be. Despite my obvious desire to have to wait until I can do it in person, 7 to 1 odds I will not be given that chance as I will probably blurt it out on the spur of the moment cuz the way I am talking with her would present that opportunity... it shouldn't be surprising as I think I've been holding back on this too long.. but this is really not because I am afraid... it's not that anymore...... I just want the right timing... something like after a nice date around the town... maybe on a moonlit sky, stars shining all around us, blah blah blah... geez... never knew I was such a hopeless romantic.. haha =P
Yeah, that's the plan... whether it works or not, I will have to see.... but right now, I really don't care about what her reaction is... I care more about finally letting this out of my system so that I can move on.... I don't want to feel that I am always holding back out of fear of rejection.. heck, with my track record, you'd think that I'm used to it by now.. haha pathetic =P Funny I would shoot myself in the foot like this.. but neh! That's me and my lack of confidence. haha. Anyway, well, there's my rant for the night.. now I better go to sleep since I am expecting a phone call next morning.. HINT HINT =P
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