It's been a long time

Not sure if anyone still reads this, but yeah, it's been a very long time.

As our basement is approaching being completely finished, what's left is to take a look at all the boxes of stuff we've accumulated and see if we can actually get rid of any of them. No small feat as we've filled up 2 garages AND a sitting room full of boxes. Unbelievable...

I happened to go through 3 boxes of things that were mine tonight and cleaned them out. Two of the boxes were full of my notes and homework from high school. I couldn't believe I kept so much of it. I had things from Grade 10 to OAC!! Sorting through it all, I couldn't help but think about that period of my life... it was a period of my life that I had many many many regrets about and I was really glad when it was over. So many what if's... so many mistakes...

Reflecting about it as I was cleaning made me imagine in my head that if when I die, I would be transported back to around that time of my life with the full knowledge of how I had lived before and given a second chance to relive it all... haha silly I know, but it was a way for me to kill the time while I sorted through piles and piles of paper. What different choices would I make? How different would my life ended up? What mistakes would I have avoided (and what new ones would I end up making instead)? Would my friends change? Knowing how I first met one of my best friends in a very unfriendly scenario, would I have been able to repeat it exactly so that our friendship would have started as it did? What if it didn't happen and the friendship did not exist after? A sci-fi fan's wet dream of course. Also, if I acted much more mature for my age at the time b/c of my knowledge, wouldn't that be weird? As well, if the gov't found out I had knowledge of the future, well, I would expect to be abducted by some country eventually... haha.

Well, it just goes to show how badly I view my high school life and the year or so before and after it. I was a silly boy. Still am... wondering how different I could have been... silly indeed.