Don't Look Back In Anger

I've read that the lyrics to this song actually doesn't make sense. No matter. I only need to know one thing... Don't look back in anger.

i.goofed

I fucked up. Again.

(Picks himself up from the floor)

(Positive thoughts)

I am still doing better than before.

I am still learning.

This isn't the end.

I.CAN.

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

There's that old saying... and in some ways, it's true. In others, not so. In mine, it's 50/50.

Yup, back to that topic again. Isn't this fun? :P

I don't know. You'd think that I'd write about something else... but there really isn't much for me to write about lately. Perhaps later on I will...

I haven't spoken to her voice to voice since mid-January. From that time, I usually converse w/ her online, and then there was the one time where things just got a bit ugly... although we've past that point fortunately for me... at least I hope so. It's funny how the whole time I talked to her online, I felt myself feeling distant... and it felt like that fateful year again... where I seemed to be living my own life again. Just... being here by myself doing my things, thinking about my things, thinking about here... losing my focus on what I need to do. I called her tonight just to see how she's doing (and absent-mindedly thinking it was new years for her already when it's still new years EVE. D'oh!). Hearing her voice brought everything back to the forefront again. I really should call her more often... but the timing is just lousy... we both got work and therefore can't really talk that much. Well, maybe I shouldn't expect to talk so much but you know how it is...

But then, I do find myself getting drawn back to the same problem. Things here are still going too well. Job-wise, I'm really doing good. Projects are rolling. I'm enjoying the things I'm doing at work. Of course, there's still the things outside of work I'm still a bit disatisfied with... but that's up to me to change obviously. My bet is that if things go as planned, I won't have to worry about it for too long :P

Let's see how it goes. It's only February. I know I am a bit disappointed at my current state of affairs still, but to change really old habits will take longer than a month to accomplish. As long as I keep at it I will eventually achieve what I want to achieve. Don't give up!

Space... The Final Frontier...

Don't you hate it when you watch a movie trailer and it practically gives away the whole movie? Like, what's the point of watching it after?

Of course, there's always just 'teaser' trailers that don't tell you much except the movie is coming. This is definitely what I call a 'teaser':


OH HELL YES... Unless the full trailer turns me off later, I am SO going to watch this.


Here's another teaser of a movie I loved. Yes, it's also ST... :P

Yesterday's Enterprise

This week has been nothing more than a huge clusterfuck on my part mostly. To the point I'm not sure if I've already ruined things for good. Don't know.

A dialog in the episode "Yesterday's Enterprise" on Star Trek TNG is what I have to tell myself everyday from now on:

Guinan: "This timeline must not be allowed to continue. Now I've told you what you must do. You have only your trust in me to help you decide to do it."

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(I felt like putting this song here since it seems fitting to a 'gotta get things done' mood... at least for me. There's no official video so you can ignore the video altogether.)

Aphex Twin - Girl Boy Song